Feeling Older...

Happy-late birthday to me .. lHmm.. I am not a B-day person. But, what I have realized this year is that I am getting old..  :( ...  alhamdulilaah.. Usually it was yeeey I am turning 15 or 16 or 5 or 7 or 17 or 18 and so on.. Now, it's like wow, I am not going to tell you my age lol.. Hmmm I haven't seen gray hair yet though lol.. Alhamdulilaah it was a great year, May Allah swt allow me to reach the next September 20th ..Amiin

Alhamdulilaah...Alhamdulilaah ....

I complained about living in non-Islamic country, almost all my life. But when we moved to U.S.A It just got worst; not being able to hear atham (call of prayer) this task was tough. Every- time I take a look at the clock to see if it's time. It just kills me. You see if you live in Islamic country, you won’t worry about dis remembering or praying late. You'll be reminded to pray. You just tackled one step out of the way. But, if you don't live in Islamic country your job is typically doubled. You have to keep track of the clock to see if it’s Salah time. But still, look at the pride side; you have Muslim people around you .Perhaps if you forget to pray and you see someone praying...tiNg tiNg. Now they reminded
you to pray. Alhamdulillah. All praise to Allah. I have no problems remembering to pray.


Now image living with non-Muslims. The Fact that you’re the only Muslim in the area. A year ago I decided to obtain a bachelor’s degree. I applied to university which  happened to be far from where I live. I expected a rejection letter. But it didn’t happen. Then, I thought my parents won’t let their youngest daughter leave home. AGAIN I WAS WRONG. I prayed every day; I asked Allah swt to stop me from this, in any way possible, if this decision would harm me or my religion . Almost everyone  I informed, that  I'll be living in campus  99%  of  them questioned my religion and dignity. “Nasra, are you out of your mind, are you not Muslim?” …”Listen to yourself”..” ..”This is Un  Islamic,, Islam forbids girls to leave home”… “You’ll be misled easily...”... “Why is that you need to go far from home, can’t you get education at the local universities?”… There is a reason for everything. If this experience tough me anything, It tough me to appreciate being a Muslim . If this experience made me anything. It made a better Muslim. I realized how lucky we’re. I did question how easily my parents accepted this decision. Being the ONLY Muslim, in this small town, filled with red-necks and infidels. Perhaps they knew something I didn’t know. . They know what kind of daughter they raised. 


Ps.. Don't spend a day with out saying Alhamdulilaah.. We are truly blessed.

Was it eid?

yes, its hard to tell if its eid or not when you are in a dorm and surround with non muslims.. Even thought I didnt had the opportunity to pray and celebrate eid .with the family and friends. It did feel like eid when I prayed by my self and yeah ate hawlo lol.....worst on the list ..but allahdulilaah ..may our fast and salah &l; duas be among the once that were accepted amiin ya Allah

A Forgotten Obligation.

When Ramadan comes I am so eager to spend time in Masjid.  However, when I get in the Masjid, all the sudden this feeling changes. What disturbs me ? You may ask .  An outrages actions  in the house of Allah. And what makes me MORE upset is when others  don't correct  "the mistake" of  their  brother/sister  yet, they talk behind them.   Talking while the khutbah is in process. .. And the other day,  A sister  brought her son's  teddy bear. She placed the teddy bear in front of her and started to pray. A lady who happened to  be praying next to her, was very upset about this action. She angrily uttered in her mother tongue and  simply, moved to the other row.  She didn't tell her that is was wrong. Whether the sister knew or not. Another sister brought her son who , ( when I guessed was about 9 or 10 years old) in the ladies room to pray. Subhana'allah.  Many people changed their rows. And didn't say a word about it. Muslims has certainly forgotten their obligations. Another girl was taking wudu,  and did a mistake ( perhaps she was a  new Muslim or Not).  However, No one said anything. They looked at her and simply walked away. They sell clothes in the Masjid .. and argue that is not a problem at all. Because it's downstairs.

Mostly, I am confused whether they do  this on purpose or they don't  have the knowledge that , this is our job to correct each other and show each other the right path. We are the only ummah that are send without a prophet to guide us on every way , but the Quran was send to us,  so that we could act upon it and learn from it.  Unfortunately, this is heart breaking. 

My favorite time of the year.

Yes” Ramadan is here, after 8 days. Insha’allah, eat as much as you can..But it’s not all about food, there is reason behind it.Ask Allah to enable you to reach Ramadan and to get the most out of it as the Salaf used to do.


The month of Ramadan is a month in which the Mercy and Blessings of Allah Ta'ala descend upon us continuously.


The whole Qur'aan was sent down to the first sky from Lawhe Mahfooz.
There is the night of Qadr, which is better than 1000 months.
The thawaab of good deed is equal to the fardh of another month. The daily bread of Muslims is increased.
The first ten days of Ramadan are MERCY


During the first ten days of Ramadan mercy is sought by Muslims who are participating in Ramadan, or those who are fasting. The Mercy that is sought during the month of Ramadan by Muslims can be divided into four important areas of erudition:


The second ten days of Ramadan are forgiveness.

The middle Ashra of Ramadan is the time for Maghfirah; the time to wash off our sins. Ramadan is the month to seek Forgiveness and repentance. Having witnessed the Mercy of Allah (SWT) by thanking Him for all that He has granted us, by being good to everyone and keeping ourselves at peace.
The last ten days are being freed from hell
Lailatul Qadr means the night of honour and dignity. It is this night in which the first Divine Revelation came to the Prophet sallalahu alayhi wasallam, when he was in prayer in the cave of Hira. Since this night enjoys the honour of having the first revelation brought to the Prophet sallalahu alayhi wasallam, it has been named Lailatul Qadr.


This is one of the holiest and most blessed nights, which is likely to occur on one of the odd nights on the last ten days of Ramadhan and most likely to be the 27th. The reward of worship on this night is better than the worship of a thousand months of worship, equivalent to a person's lifetime. So, on this night one should pray nafil namaz, recite the Quran, do Tasbih, Zikr, Duas, etc as much as possible.
Aishah (RA): “Allah’s Messenger used to practice I`itikaf in the last ten nights and say: ‘Seek out Lailatul-Qadr in the (odd nights) of the last ten of Ramadan.” [Bukhari and Muslim]


What are you waiting for? Make moves..Meep Meep.

Do we really care?

Do we really care?

by Nasra Abdulkadir on Saturday, July 23, 2011 at 10:59pm

When you gaze toward an infant who's hand in placed in his forehead, on account of famish and thirst.
Are you sadden by it or does it depressed you ?
When you see an image of a child who's stomach is heavyweight over his tiny body.
Do you weep or find your self in lament moment?


When you see a nursing mother who's is in a poor quality and, her toddler in weeping on top of her.
Do you wish to help?


When a mother of six, reaches she destination she is left with only two out of six.
Do you find tears rolling down you chins?


Did you answer YES to any of this questions?


Yet you and I dispose an eatable food Every Single Day.
Yet we decide what food to eat, and mention how we DISLIKE this food and that one.
Yet we are annoyed and bothered by a headache and simple pain.
Yet we spend hundreds of dollars on our cellular Ever Single Month. And unworthy stuff.


Do we really care for them? Or it's A matter of time, that we feel sorry for them?

Fasting on the 15th of Sha’ban

Mid-Sha'ban "..... The 15th day known as Laylatul baraat . Mid-Sha'ban is observe  as a night of worship and salvation. It was  narrated  that Allah swt determines the destiny of all people, including whether a person lives or dies, in the coming year and for this reason it is sometimes called the "Night of Emancipation.. Even thought the other half of the scholars say, it's actually done the night of laylatul qadar, which kind of makes sense. in the night of baraat, (last 15th of sha'ban ) what was written for ever single one of us will be executed. (ALLAH KNOWS THE BEST)

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Fast of the 15th Sha'ban On the day immediately following the Night of Bara'ah, i.e. the 15th of Sha'ban, it is mustahabb (advisable) to keep fast. Prophet Muhammad (s), is reported to have recommended this fast emphatically. A large number of the predecessors (salaf) of the Ummah have been observing the fast of the 15th of Sha'ban.

Therefore, it is advisable to fast the 15th of Sha'ban as an optional (nafl) fast. One can also keep a fast of qada on this day and it is hoped that he can also benefit from the merits of this fast.

Abu Huraira (may Allah be well pleased with him) reported the Prophet (Allah bless him and give him peace) as saying: Gabriel (peace be upon him) came to me on the night of mid-Sha'ban and said to me: "O Muhammad, raise your head heavenwards!" I asked him: "What night is this?" and he replied: " This is the night when Allah (Glorified is He) opens three hundred of the gates of mercy, forgiving all who do not make anything His partner . The only exceptions are those who practice sorcery or divination, are addicted to wine, or persist in usury and illicit sex; these He does not forgive until they repent."

At a quarter of the night, Gabriel (peace be upon him) came down and said: "0 Muhammad, raise your head!" So I looked up, to behold the gates of Paradise wide open. At the first gate an angel was calling: "Good news for those who bow in worship this night!" At the second gate an angel was calling: "Good news for those who prostrate themselves in worship this night!" At the third gate an angel was calling: "Good news for those who offer supplication this night!" At the fourth gate an angel was calling: "Good news for those who make remembrance this night!" At the fifth gate an angel was calling: "Good news for those who weep this night from fear of Allah!" At the sixth gate an angel was calling: "Good news for those who submit this night!" At the seventh gate an angel was calling: "Will anyone ask, that his request may be granted?" At the eighth gate an angel was calling: "Will anyone seek forgiveness, that he may be forgiven?"

I said: " O Gabriel, how long will these gates remain open?" He replied: "From the beginning of the night until the break of dawn." Then he said: "0 Muhammad, tonight Allah has as many slaves emancipated from the Fire as the number of woolly hairs on the flocks and herds ofKalb."

2. The blessed companion Usama ibn Zaid, Radi-Allahu anhu, reports that he asked Prophet Muhammad, Sall-Allahu alayhi wa sallam: "Messenger of Allah, I have seen you fasting in the month of Sha'ban so frequently that I have never seen you fasting in any other month." Prophet Muhammad, Sall-Allahu alayhi wa sallam, replied: "That (Sha'ban) is a month between Rajab and Ramadan which is neglected by many people. And it is a month in which an account of the deeds (of human beings) is presented before the Lord of the universe, so, I wish that my deeds be presented at a time when I am in a state of fasting." 

Ummul-Mu'mineen 'Aishah, Radi-Allahu anha, is reported to have said, "Once Prophet Muhammad, Sall-Allahu alayhi wa sallam, performed the Salah of the night (Tahajjud) and made a very long Sajdah until I feared that he had passed away. When I saw this, I rose (from my bed) and moved his thumb (to ascertain whether he is alive). The thumb moved, and I returned (to my place). Then I heard him saying in Sajdah: 'I seek refuge of Your forgiveness from Your punishment, and I seek refuge of Your pleasure from Your annoyance, and I seek Your refuge from Yourself. I cannot praise You as fully as You deserve. You are exactly as You have defined Yourself.' Thereafter, when he raised his head from Sajdah and finished his salah, he said to me: 'Aishah, did you think that the Prophet has betrayed you?' I said, 'No, O Prophet of Allah, but I was afraid that your soul has been taken away because your Sajdah was very long.' He asked me, 'Do you know which night is this?' I said, 'Allah and His Messenger know best.' He said, 'This is the night of the half of Sha'ban. Allah Almighty looks upon His slaves in this night and forgives those who seek forgiveness and bestows His mercy upon those who pray for mercy but keeps those who have malice (against a Muslim) as they were before, (and does not forgive them unless they relieve themselves from malice).

PDA and Muslims

Subahan'allah, I don't want to point finger nor mention names in here, but recently, I have ran into Muslims PDA (public display of affection) Now,  I  grew  up in a society that was  50% Christians, 50% Muslims. Now this people I speak about HAVE the same culture. Let alone Muslims even the infidels didn't go far with this DPA . Holding hands, hugging or kissing in public are considered to be unobjectionable forms of public displays of affection; however, what is considered objectionable depends on the place and the people.  Even if it's your God given right (your wife/husband) there should be a limit to your affection in public.  There is a saying, "Act like your neighbors or let them act like you".It's fitna-filled atmospheres. Seems like we're getting lost in the crowd. 

I' will be honest am not sheikh, or strict  holding hands (spouse) I don't mind. But the issue is spontaneous gesture of love, that is just over the boundary .Spontaneous gestures of love need to be private, regardless of statues, married or not..  First time I experienced this it was in Airport,  Allah ya alam how many days and years he was gone. Still that is not an excuse. Handle it else where.  If this is bothering us, humans, Imagine how displeasing it is to Allah swt.

Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un

Allatheena ithâ asabat-hum museebatun qaloo inna lillahi wa innâ ilay-hi raji'oon"

O Allaah, she is under Your care and protection so protect her from the trial of the grave and torment of the Fire. Indeed You are faithful and truthful. Forgive and have mercy upon her, surely You are The Oft-Forgiving, The Most-Merciful’.  

Truly! To Allah we belong and truly, to Him we shall return. kullu nafsin da iqatul maut, our grave is waiting for us. But, I wish I had the chance to meet my grandmother. Last Time I spoke with her, she said insha'allah we shall meet. I haven't met both of my grandfathers,(May Allah swt bestow his mercy on them) And all 3 of my grandmothers are gone. I truly wanted to meet one of them. Subahallan, I was planning  to meet her this summer, but I was stopped. It's all in Allah hand . I couldn't face the fact and the condition she was in. I rather not see her. Than meet my grandmother in such a condition. It was locked in my mind that one day she would get better. Then I would meet her in a perfect condition. We make our own schedule. Like tomorrow would come and go.And Allah swt had a different plan. It's meant to be. May Allah swt bestow his mercy on her. Amin....

Missed You

People change over time. The greatest problem is trying to find out why they’ve changed without blaming yourself. The person that you cared about, the person you cherished . The one you use to  finished their sentence for.The once who pulled you out from the darkness. The one you loved for the sake of Allah swt. The one that pulled you towards your religion. The friend, the brother, the sister, the  great mentor. The one that used to lend you a shoulder to cry on. The one that could read your eyes. The one that knew what you liked and disliked. The one you fought with one minute and made up the other. 

You might wonder, what happened between us? How did we get to this point. You never took a walk without me. And Now, we walk on a different roads. Even thought we are going the same place. We use to laugh together. Now you laugh without me. We use to play hide and seek. Now you hide from me. And I don't seek for you. What happened between us. 

 You blame time. I blame us. You blame Age, I blame us. You blame the distance. I blame us. Yes it had been 10 years, Yes we had grown into two different people. But, what I can't deny is the pain that I see in your eyes. What I can't deny is the sorrow behind your laughter. What I can't condone is the silence. I famish for you friendship, I strive for our partnership. You hesitated to say my name. I refused to utter about you. What had gone wrong between us?