Hijab + Skinny Jeans

The most preposterous  thing Muslim girls do (in the western world) The newfangled style,  wearing  Hijab (Masha'allah ) at the same time  they are wearing  skinny jeans. They presume they are cover, their mind is preoccupied that they  are dressed probably according to Islam. Most of them argue, "I'm wearing hijab my hair is not showing, plus my bottom is covered. so what".

Yes, The most sinful awrah is the hair(according to female). The common misconception is most people are not familiar with the word "Hijab"  The word itself comes from the Arabic word "hajaba" meaning to conceal or hide from view. Hijab is the modest covering of the HEAD to TOE

In Surah Nur

"And say to the faithful women to lower their gazes, and to guard their private parts, and not to display their beauty except what is apparent of it, and to extend their headcoverings (khimars) to cover their bosoms (jaybs), and not to display their beauty except to their husbands, or their fathers, or their husband's fathers, or their sons, or their husband's sons, or their brothers, or their brothers' sons, or their sisters' sons, or their womenfolk, or what their right hands rule (slaves), or the followers from the men who do not feel sexual desire, or the small children to whom the nakedness of women is not apparent, and not to strike their feet (on the ground) so as to make known what they hide of their adornments. And turn in repentance to Allah together, O you the faithful, in order that you are successful."

   

Plus They come to the masjid of Allah swt  dressed like that . Yet they have the guts to talk about how  embarrassed they were today or yesterday when such and such had  occurred. They are disconcerted  on the eyes of the society. But they stand in front of their creator looking like that and not feel ashamed.   If they were to have an interview for a job. There is no doubt whether  or not they would dress  professional to please interviewee.   Today most of us don't strive to please our creator the   Most Gracious, Most Merciful. Allah swt is qafuru'rahiim"  ( Most Forgiving). But we are weak and the shaydaan is sure keeping the promise that he  made to misguide the ummah of Aden. (as)

Why Islam prohibits polyandry

  I was once watching Discovery channel . A country in South Asia called Nepal one of their few clan   practice polyandry.  In order to avoid confusion of unknown father when she gets pregnant. they only allow brothers to marry one wife. Since advancement of medicine and technology  is able and they won't be able  to specify  the real father if  few unrelated male marry one women. They perform this act for several reasons, such as. The men over populated  females. And one of the major reason is   financial   crisis . Instead  of providing for different house holds. Why not only spend it on ONE house hold.

 

  Having several husbands, the wife  will not find it possible to perform her duties as a wife.  Woman who have more than one husband will have several sexual partner.. Which will also require the wife to  shift over each night. Therefor a  higher chances of  developing  sexually transmitted disease. Also it can build negative qualities to the offspring. Lets say  there is to occur a battle between the brothers. And they decide to go into different directions. If you and I were drinking a milk and we pour our milk in one bowl and decided to take back. You and I will be able to take back the amount of milk that was in our glass, but can you be able to separate your milk from mine. It's preposterous.   What kind of men wants to share his wife with his brother subhana'laah  It's just a disgusting act. Everything that Islam prohibits and obligates  has it's own reasons.  

Officially Nerd!

 People call me geek, Nerd, before I even start wearing glasses, . I usually wondered if they were being sarcastic. Not That I was as smart as they though I was. I use get "F"s  now and again.  BUT who knew , I NOW  officially consider myself A NERD, Who knew the nerd would get accept to University.And perhaps get scholarship. My GPA is average. 3.0. (Not the best.)..

However, I didn’t perform well on my SAT/ ACT, I got nervous the first time when I saw too many Asians   in the line . So I decided. To take it again in October. And then Again got edgy and made lower percentile then previous. (Asian were still there of course :) Stupid me I forgot that they  combine both grade. Nor did I  joined a club, I played Soccer freshman year and I quit it . My extracurricular was down the toilet. I did some volunteering now and again. But it didn’t last more then two weeks.( DON'T EVER share you dirty laundry with the administration.)

Long story short. My transcript  is not cute. So I just but the trust on Allah swt. and applied to two of so considered the best Universities in town . I received  a rejection slip From UNT.  Then I lost hope. I was getting ready to attend Community college. Then I received an Email asking for my  official SAT score and  an essay for the scholarship.  I send them an essay.  After 3 weeks and so. They again  send me another email asking for the transcript. I was ashamed with my transcript honestly.  I send it after a week with one eye closed. After 3 days I received a letter from them. I didn't opened it. I could smell  the rejection. So I went to sleep. After magrib I said tawakal  Alallah  and opened it. I even had a bones letter in there with scholarship. You may now call me a nerd ...

You could never pay back

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So FAST!!

The weather was nice last week.Mother and I decided to take a walk.  On our way back home, there was unbalanced rock,which she didn't see.  I was  walking next to her and  bothered by the little chiwawa  barking.

I turn and I saw her half way to the ground, I tried to catch her but it happened so fast. There was nothing in between her and the sidewalk. Thanks god there was no cars in the street.  Alhamdulilaah  it was  not severe.  She said when you guys were little when ever you fall , I hold it you tight to comfort you, blowing over your wound  carefully till you stop crying. Now it's your turn to take care of me.  As I was cleaning her wounded noise .  I realized  how time has taken its toll on her. Day after Day how fragile she looked. Her face surrounded by these countless lines. Her gray hair display under her scarf. I couldn't help it,  tears passed though my eye line. I didn't know why I teared.  is it  because I was thankful For having  just a great mother. Was I scared of taking over,Now that she was in  position  that she needed us. and doubted  whether I could be as kind and caring and loving as she was to us.

Or was I  just not ready for it.  I remember sleeping well,  when I fall sleep on her lap. I remember the food tasting incredibly  good  when she cooks it . I remember feeling worried when she leaves, worrying if she would come back. I remember having the biggest smile on my face when I see her come back.   How comfortable I use to be to share my dreams/ and stories with her. How I loved when she tells us the story about the man who had two wives. Even though she told us 1000 times. But she never got tired of watching us burst out laughing. When she went to the whole neighborhood and praise about our accomplishment in school. How she made us  up keep our head up no matter what.  When she didn't had the  the 10 dollars for our transportation, we watched her go up and down the hill  tears on her chicks searching for a loan to get us to school. How she knew when we do things and try to hide it from her. She use to tell us that she has an eyes on the back of her head. And we believed her.   All Praise to Allah. Only He knows when our time is due . I pray everyday to die first before my mother is gone.

Questioning God's Existence

I spoke with a Teacher, It's not usually what I do. If I ever do exchange words With Teacher it's based on my grades and improvement. But   some how our conversation  started from my Hijab(head cover) To a point where he told me that : He stop believing in god long time ago.

 I asked why? But he didn't answer.  His silence proved to me that  some where in his heart he believes in some kinds of existence of creator.


I'm sure some where in your heart, you believe in some kind of God,
He retort, YES! out loud
He continued, I use to go to church, all they preached about was:  damning of  god, all the awful things that he will do to us if we didn't follow what it said in the bible. He'll Punish forever those who decided not to believe in him. It's either "Hell or Heaven".  I always had condemnation about Christianity.
But you know what I don't understand is even, if God does exited and it's all  true, the god that  Christianity  depicted is way  far from being worthy of worship.


Why? I asked


 If god is all powerful like they say, the one that  created the universe and everything in between , who had unlimited power and knowledge. Yet they also showed a god so insecure that he needed his tiny creations to worship and praise him, to accept him as the most important thing in their lives.


What this grown  man who calls him self "Educated", what he didn't understand is the meaning of the  word "worship" OR maybe Christianity define worship as he said.


Of course god is not gaining anything from his tiny creatures whether they worship him or not.

To understand why human beings need to worship God, one must first understand what is meant by the term ‘worship.’  ,,, ‘worship’ meaning ‘honor.’  Consequently, worship in the English language is defined as ‘the performance of devotional acts in honor of a deity.’  According to this meaning, man is instructed to show gratitude to God by glorifying Him. 

In the Quran, God says: “Glorify the praises of your Lord...” (Quran 15:98)

in the Quran , God states:

“The seven heavens and the earth and whatever is in them glorify Him and there is nothing which does not glorify His praise.  However, you do not understand their glorification.” In this sense, glorification also becomes worship when humans choose to obey God’s instructions regarding His glorification.  

At this point I was speechless with this insanity. I was raised in house hold where god exited. And in my heart I believe in god. Absolutely did I had ever doubted.  He told me that he was always depressed ,anxiety, Lonely,  tried some various of  therapies but their is emptiness in my heart. I want to be loved, and cared for. Like others. Who are reaching their goals and gaining happiness. Ever year I feel like I have not achieved anything substantial.  Sometimes  I pray in the middle of the night but there is no answer.


I asked what he meant by "there is No Answer"
To let me know, show me signs of his existence, anything, He said


 Our neighbor has 6 year old son, She once asked me to pick him up from school. As we were walking toward home. He looked up and asked me, who build the the sky?


I said, I did.
He laugh, you are not that tall.
Then I said okay mommy did
No! she did not
okay dad it.
He is short too , he said
Then I asked him, then who do you thing did.
He said I don't know, I don't thing there is a human tall enough to built it, even if they use tall  latter nor get on top of  the plain.


A child just six years old is intellectually capable of figuring out that there is something else beside mommy  and daddy(HUMAN). If you happened to be walking and you saw a footprints You won't question whether someone have been  here , you won't doubt whether they rolled in the sand or walked. You  won't be able to find who walked if you get in the crowd. But somewhere  in your eyes you know what you saw. I don't know how more clearly this can get. Just look around you!  Is human capable of such creation?. Is science that Powerful. Are You stupid enough to thing the sky is blue because it reflects the ocean.


When this man said, he prays but there is no answer. What he means is : while he was praying he wanted god to open his window and cold wind to enter and touch his body and  tremble. To show his existence and sign of god showing his gratitude to him. Or he perhaps wanted god to break his lamp or shake his bed to show his existence and that he was mad at  him.  His brain is FULL of  Lack of intelligence. Or maybe that's what they preach about. How god will punish you. In order to make one love god. But Islam  teaches us how great God is.


 His emptiness  came from perhaps him not believing in god. Those who DON'T believe in God. No matter what they accomplish they fell "Less". They find themself  "Lost" in the middle of the night staring at the 4 walls. They have  "Lack of confidence" They always feel "Lonely" They think they need others to love them and help them out,  reach out to them .( THE ONLY help they can get is the Help of GOD, all it takes is believing in God). They blame god for being sick, They blame god for living in proverty. They claim if such God  exists than why I am I in this situation. state of being angry they deny his exists. stubbornly and arrogancy pushed them to the thin line. They take the hard road. They soon see no reason to live, and not worthy. So they end their life.  They refuse the  fact that God will test Them, Few pass the test, those who have faith, those that are strong. They are not left out, they get reward hereafter.